As I wake up today, it’s cloudy outside and I remember how far I’ve come. So many of you follow me on Instagram and this blog because of my career in fashion. Thank you for that. I’m hopeful you even appreciate my sense of humor or maybe we are friends from college. But what many of you don’t know is that I have always struggled with anxiety and depression. Over the past few years it got worse. My anxiety was exasperated by chronic migraines and neck pain. I was finally grieving the death of my brother. In the past waking up on a day like today would be “a reason” to have an off day or an off week or an off month. This cold front coming through would trigger a migraine. Add the chronic pain to anxiety and everything would snow ball. I would be angry at myself for feeling awful…and that just made it worse. I have always been so hard on myself. My worst critic.
Guess what? Mental health is not something you decide to struggle with. It is not a choice and I will argue that forever, with anyone. And if you are struggling emotionally you know what I’m talking about, but it’s the people who don’t understand how you’re feeling…who come from a very naïve, negative place. They think that you can just go to the gym, take an antidepressant, pray, think positive and you’ll be just fine. (Cue eye roll.)
Your brain is not wired like somebody’s who does not suffer from anxiety and depression, but you want to feel better. So you try everything in this world. I did. I tried EVERYTHING. But I still didn’t feel better. I felt defeated. Lost. Confused. The opposite of happy. I was miserable. KEY part is that all of these struggles are now in the past.
I promise to share specifics about my journey in future posts. What I can tell you now is that I am free of extreme anxiety, depression, I barely get any headaches, my chronic pain is a non issue, and I’m happy! Regular medicine does not work for me. I tried SO many different ones, all the way back to when I was a 12 years old. BUT, what did work for me was this cutting-edge infusion treatment. Ketamine infusions gave me my life back. I have never been this happy before, this productive, this grounded, this at peace. My brain is completely healed. 100%.
No one and I repeat no one on this earth should have to suffer from anxiety, chronic pain, depression, bi-polar depression or PTSD. I never had true PTSD nor did I have bi-polar depression, but this treatment is having great success for those people as well. Also, I was never suicidal. When given to someone who is suicidal, ketamine infusions have a significant, ground-breaking effect; the depression and suicidal thoughts fade away. Thank God. Together, we can finally stop the negative stigma around mental health.
This is my experience. Yours may be different. But what if it’s not? I would like to defer to the health experts (like Dr. Andrea Kim at Texas Ketamine Specialists) on exactly how it works, but I can tell you this. Ketamine heals you brain. When you are anxious or depressed, parts of your brain are over active and other parts are not functioning. These infusions re-wire you brain, create new neuron receptors. Ketamine heals your brain. And it happens in real time. Life changing now has a new meaning.
1. Happiness. Because you know what is really beautiful? Glowing from being at peace and feeling happy. We all want it. Some of us are experiencing it right now, some of us are struggling, and some of us may be struggling next week. We get into a funk and don’t even know what’s happened. Like losing a loved one…or an emergency surgery. That can surely knock you down, and it’s not your fault. Read that again— it’s not your fault. But what is a CHOICE is deciding to find something that makes you happy again. If you have an underlying mental health issue and medicine doesn’t work for you, it’s not your fault. If your family has a history of heart disease, you can do everything possible to adjust your lifestyle and be proactive, but you heart health is still going to be an issue. That’s also not your fault. Brain health (PTSD, anxiety, depression, chronic migraines) up until recently, hasn’t had a treatment option like Ketamine infusions. And you don’t experience the negative sides effects like you find with antidepressants or anxiety medicine. It offers quick results and has more than a 70% success rate. By instant, I mean three hours later. I did my first treatment last November here in Dallas, TX, at Texas Ketamine Specialists. This is not a rehab facility. It a doctor’s office. It took one hour, I went home and slept for a couple hours and then I woke up. Literally. I went outside my parents’ house and took my dog for a walk. And for the first time I looked around. The sun was shining through the leaves of the trees, I could hear the birds chirping, and I was completely at peace. It was quiet and beautiful, because I didn’t have anxiety, I wasn’t sad, and I didn’t have a headache. I was finally living and happy. This is what normal feels like. Wow. We all want to be happy but we are all afraid to talk about not being happy. It’s so annoying. That has to stop. I was really cautious to share my story, because I was worried about being judged. I’m not afraid to share my story anymore. I want to help you, and I want you to be happy and thrive too!
2. Treat Yourself. Now that we’ve gotten the crucial conversation out of the way, treat yourself. Now this looks differently for everybody. Maybe you’ve been working really really hard and you’re exhausted. Take a nap. Swing by DryBar and get your hair styled . . . it’s one less thing for you to do, and you’ll feel great! Get a massage. Go buy the shoes that you’ve been wanting to buy. Take a trip. Just do it, because you deserve to be happy. And don’t second guess it.
3. Celery Juice. It’s something everybody is buzzing about now, but I’ve been drinking it for quite a while thanks to a dear friend of mine Lindsay Attaway. She told me all about it. “Try celery juice”, she said. “Just trust me.” Do you want your skin to look good? Say goodbye eczema and horrible breakouts. Do you want to heal your body from the inside out? The benefits go on and on and on, and I cannot tell you enough how much of a difference drinking celery juice first thing in the morning (on an empty stomach) will do for your life. I legit feel like this is one of the most magical secret cures that is not so secret anymore. Added bonus: it helps with weight loss and also increases your mental clarity. Just check out this graphic above. I’ll just leave the rest to the experts. Celery juice is amazing!
4. Snuggle With a Dog. If you don’t have a dog or cat, get one. We had cats growing up, so the dog I have now is the first dog I’ve ever had. He’s 12 and amazing. If you do not have a dog (or cat, because I don’t want to offend the cat people), run to your nearest shelter and take one home with you. I’m not even kidding. There is nothing more unconditional as far as love goes, and there’s nothing better for stress than loving on a pet. If you know me you know how obsessed I am with my dog, Riley. He is my everything, my fur baby. So I suggest that you snuggle with your dog or cat today. Yep. It’s just that simple. You will be happier and healthier because a dog (or cat) is in your life.